【Final impression】

The precious summer in YSS


            It was my first time studying abroad. I had a lot of anxiety. Will my English be understood? Will I make friends? Will anyone try to listen to my poor English? But I learned so much that I could forget those fears. And also I feel I could change myself. 



Poster session was the first time speaking in front of an audience except for a presentation. But it was not a nervous one. Because everyone who came to me was so smiling and showed a willingness to listen although my English was so terrible and sometimes I got lost in words. As Mia said before, our class in Japan has some returnees and I always feel pressure from them to speak with correct grammar. However, here it was different. Most of the people I met here tried their best to listen to my poor English, and if they can’t understand, they would listen back to me. At a glance, it seems to be like just a conversation, but for me, it was a great thing and that moment will never be erased from my memory. I think it was thanks to all of you that I was able to relax and talk. 



Here, I had enough time to face myself. I feel as if I am in a dream. When I was in Japan, I was always busy with something and was always pressed for time. But now, I feel like I am free from everything that constrains me in Japan, and I can be myself as I am. I'm still trying to figure out what's holding me back, how to be myself in Japan, and who I am. But it is true that through this summer I was able to find issues that I will have to think about in the future.

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